Be whatever you chose to be

It is said that Attitude is everything and it is the absolute truth when talking about being a successful Cam Model. It has taken me about two and a half years as a cam model to realize just how important it is, and how to go about preparing myself mentally before I turn on my cam for the day. This mindset applies whether you are an indy model or one who works for a site. 

In the past I would check this site, and others to see what was going on and reading much negative. Everywhere it seemed that I would read about models fighting or complaining, and get sucked into the negativity. If you add to the equation that I was concerned about how society thought about what I do for a living, it was hard to feel good. You know what I mean, slut shaming, making me feel a bit dirty in the process. I think that as humans we have a need to feel that what we do for a living has value and purpose to others. We have the need to feel we have left an important mark of our very own on this earth before we move on.

How oh how was I to see cam modeling as a worthy life purpose? That was the question that plagued me. I was at the point that I hated to turn on my cam and work, but it is the main income of the family so I had to. The harder that I tried to make money the less I made it to not make sense to me. Then one day I happened upon a youtube video of a motivational speaker named Tony Robbins, and everything changed from that moment on. I started filling my mind with positive before I would go work out, as I was preparing for a 5k with my daughter.

All of my life I was told I was not an athlete nor was I a runner. But that day as I was on the treadmill I remembered something that I heard in a positive video that I had watched, it was that I could be whatever I chose to be. I had always hit a mental block with running and I would stop at 5 minutes and walk. On that day I decided I am an Athlete and I am a Runner! I turned to my Husband and said 'how far is a 5k?'. Three point one miles, oh yeah baby you got this I said to myself. I ran and as I did I cried, sweat and let go, I let go of all of the negative that had filled my life. As I finished the three point one miles I knew that it had changed my life, not only in the matter of fitness but in my mental fitness.

I knew at that point that I could go on and be a happy Cam Model and be proud of what I do, and that it was perfectly okay to like or love what I do. I now first thing in the morning before I work find inspiration on youtube, I listen to positive motivation everyday as I have my cup of coffee and it seems to have made a great difference. There's so much out there at our disposal on the internet we just have to choose to use it for positive or for negative.

I have become a fast study of the laws of attraction and without a doubt it has made all of the difference. I have learned to be giver, meaning that I give to charity. I also mentor now and I am grateful that I am able to bring pleasure and company to men and women via my chat room. On this site and in life I have made choice to surround myself with others that are positive, because positive attracts positive.

How is it for you? How are you choosing to start your day? Have you found purpose or are you stumbling around in life? Do you realize that you have a choice? For me Nirvana was found that day on the treadmill and I have made the choice to continue it! What will it take for you to find your Nirvana? Will you even seek it? Knowing that thoughts become things, what will you choose to think? You and you alone hold the power and you alone have the choice.